CW: suicide mention, metnal health issues, depression, medical procedures (listed by author). Lauren Mary shares her experience undergoing one round of transcranial magnetic stimulation (TMS) therapy in an attempt to treat her depression. Through a series of journal entries, Lauren shares conversations with medical staff, friends, and doctors regarding the process: introduction to TMS by a nurse practitioner friend, the initial consultation, navigating insurance, the treatment itself, and the follow-up. The zine also includes an update in 2019 with Lauren's ADHD diagnosis. -- Grace Li